maybe it's time to actually start to listen to my brain instead of what i am keen of. i should focus on the realistic side of life, instead of just day-dreaming of would-be or ifs.

whats wrong with me now, i must and have to study, not day dream. not wasting my thoughts on stupid, foolish, unrealistic things.

it's time to buck up, and give it my all for this year.

and by next year, i'll be alright and not do things that are unacceptable by social standards.

ugh, why bother writing this in the first place.

foolish foolish me.

i hope you see this, but i know you never will, and even if you do, you won't understand. sighh.

THATS ALL.